Am I Kidding Myself?

It's Tuesday.

The weekend came and went. Monday came and went. And somehow I feel like I haven't gotten shit done. Sales at work have taken a freaking dive lately. Not because I suddenly forgot how to sell. People just aren't coming through the door. September is historically a shitty month for retail, so at least there was an explanation for some of it. But September is over. Yesterday I missed goal by four freaking dollars. Four. I can sell to people who walk through the door. I can't sell to people who aren't there.

Meanwhile I'm trying to figure out how the hell I'm supposed to balance everything else. VantaQueen deserves my time. The CybrThugs deserve my time. Work gets my time because bills don't give a shit about what I'm trying to build. And let's not even get started on figuring out how I'm supposed to market myself, LastLook and Lonely Ranch Games while still finding enough hours to actually make the shit I'm trying to market.

The stupid part is that I know I can build things. Neon Chain exists. Salvage Run exists, wherever the hell that's going because I still haven't heard anything from 2P Game Arcade. I've built the websites. And LastLook just hit RC2. It's 2-3 days away from being ready for release and, out of everything I've built so far, I think LastLook is the thing I'm most proud of.

So maybe that's what's screwing with my head this morning. I'm not sitting here wondering if I can build this stuff anymore.

I'm wondering if I can actually make all of this work.

Am I kidding myself?